My mother and father picked me up from the hospital when I was 3 days old. They stories behind it and the family gossip don't matter. What does matter is I was give a chance my sibling weren't. My Biological mother I don't remember seeing her but four times and always leaving as my parents were driving up to the house were my sibling lived with food because they had none. My mom would get a call and my dad would say well lets go them Beba come on mija we are going to see your sibling.
Family gossip is horrible when you are adopted within the blood relations. My bio and my mother are sisters. My mother passed away at a early age she was 59 years old. She help raise many of her sisters children. Before I was born both aunts were put in jail. My father and mother took care of over 20 kids that year. I wont even put the charges cause one aunt has passed and I loved her I will not disrespect her like that.
Thru the years siblings have passed away since. I have tried to connect to the bio mom but she is bio hazard. She is a bitter women. life has not dealt her a fair hand. The hatred she has for herself she has projected on to my father. It angers me. My father prays for all these people every night and they say the ugliest things about him I defend him and stay away. Then when some one passes I go they say we love don't disappear again...then bam...they start with the gossip. I want say dad don't pray for them but I would never hurt him like that. That would mean I would have to tell him why and I will not make my father feel bad. I will just pray for them to.
He never says oh I did for so and so and I did that for them and they are ungrateful, He prays for them I want to be angry but he shows me we must pray for them. I will continue to do as I am shown by example, pray for everyone. I refuse to return hate my father would tell me that was killing someone when you hate. I didn't understand where he got that from and it is the Bible.
Don't get me wrong I love me family and writing about stuff helps that is why I blog I was raised as an only child. Writing is and always was a from of release for me.
We recently lost a loved one and we all came together again. Each time I go I feel bad for the bio mom but she is my aunt I am respectful but she acts like a spoiled child whispering behind my back pointing out things I do. My other aunt looks like my mom they reassemble one another not exactly alike. It just makes me cry every time I see her.
Seriously I don't know what to do but stay away for good. Even if things happen I am going to stay away. When my oldest sibling passed I told her I was not going. She said I want you there firmly I said I couldn't go. I was sick didn't feel it was the time to tell her. Needless to say she told me well if your husband dies don't expect me there! That one caught me off guard.
Now here I am at 50 years old married and still confused some of these people thrive off drama it is sad, I went around for a week the wrong one I am sure because their are a few I am close with and love dearly. I love them all they are just the most confusing, chaotic people I have ever know, I have one sister who comes around just to find out stuff but the thing is she say it I listen then she goes and says I said it. This has never changed I feel sorry for her, she is successful yet she is the unhappy, she wants a relationship with a person who understands her good luck with that.
I am invited to the family reunion the extended family not just them, I want to go but I don't want to speak some people would it be rude to just walk by and ignore them? It would be worse if we talked. Most of my family are good people they intend well. I know I am judging. I better pray like my dad has shown me and be a lady. I am blessed to be unconditionally love and cared for. I pray that happens for them also if it hasn't happen already.
Family gossip is horrible when you are adopted within the blood relations. My bio and my mother are sisters. My mother passed away at a early age she was 59 years old. She help raise many of her sisters children. Before I was born both aunts were put in jail. My father and mother took care of over 20 kids that year. I wont even put the charges cause one aunt has passed and I loved her I will not disrespect her like that.
Thru the years siblings have passed away since. I have tried to connect to the bio mom but she is bio hazard. She is a bitter women. life has not dealt her a fair hand. The hatred she has for herself she has projected on to my father. It angers me. My father prays for all these people every night and they say the ugliest things about him I defend him and stay away. Then when some one passes I go they say we love don't disappear again...then bam...they start with the gossip. I want say dad don't pray for them but I would never hurt him like that. That would mean I would have to tell him why and I will not make my father feel bad. I will just pray for them to.
He never says oh I did for so and so and I did that for them and they are ungrateful, He prays for them I want to be angry but he shows me we must pray for them. I will continue to do as I am shown by example, pray for everyone. I refuse to return hate my father would tell me that was killing someone when you hate. I didn't understand where he got that from and it is the Bible.
Don't get me wrong I love me family and writing about stuff helps that is why I blog I was raised as an only child. Writing is and always was a from of release for me.
We recently lost a loved one and we all came together again. Each time I go I feel bad for the bio mom but she is my aunt I am respectful but she acts like a spoiled child whispering behind my back pointing out things I do. My other aunt looks like my mom they reassemble one another not exactly alike. It just makes me cry every time I see her.
Seriously I don't know what to do but stay away for good. Even if things happen I am going to stay away. When my oldest sibling passed I told her I was not going. She said I want you there firmly I said I couldn't go. I was sick didn't feel it was the time to tell her. Needless to say she told me well if your husband dies don't expect me there! That one caught me off guard.
Now here I am at 50 years old married and still confused some of these people thrive off drama it is sad, I went around for a week the wrong one I am sure because their are a few I am close with and love dearly. I love them all they are just the most confusing, chaotic people I have ever know, I have one sister who comes around just to find out stuff but the thing is she say it I listen then she goes and says I said it. This has never changed I feel sorry for her, she is successful yet she is the unhappy, she wants a relationship with a person who understands her good luck with that.
I am invited to the family reunion the extended family not just them, I want to go but I don't want to speak some people would it be rude to just walk by and ignore them? It would be worse if we talked. Most of my family are good people they intend well. I know I am judging. I better pray like my dad has shown me and be a lady. I am blessed to be unconditionally love and cared for. I pray that happens for them also if it hasn't happen already.
