the first time I started with Nexavar a targeted chemo theraphy it is not a cure but helps to slow down the progression of these tumors that have decide to appear on my kidneys.
The first time was a nightmare, I have to say I am overly melancholy it has not been that bad God has been carrying me thru the worst. Yes I feel like throwing up much of the time and the pain it comes and goes but the Joy of the Lord is stronger than all of that. I just think this too shall pass.
It is hard to continue to take this medication cause it does cause pain and wow at times. I know it is to keep them from coming back. I am healed it is not coming back the first time I always knew deep down somewhere that I was not better. I thank God because the Cancer that did hit my body was a slow moving cancer. Having all the surgeries I have had did help it not spread also. Everything that happens in your life is for a reason. One day it will be revealed why things were they way they were. You will say ahhhh I see, or Now I know why? God has had his hand on me from the beginning. He knew that I would be given up for adoption, I would have the parents I did. I would learn morality that has seemed to escaped some people. I would experience unconditional Love, something my sibling have yet to experience. I have three brothers and one sister that have gone to be with the Lord. I always wonder if they ever knew unconditional Love? I pray they did. I pray my other siblings experience it with all my heart. There are times in your life when you know you need to bow out of people lifes. My stress level is better when I stay to myself with just my family. God is good.
I love Sundays when I have enough energy to go to church, it is a special sunday every sunday my eldest daughter is married to a Pastor it is now a place where we can meet as a family and celebrate life with Jesus in the family what a happy home. Having God in you life is awesome and fun, even while going thru chemo. I am thankful that our family get together point in the Church! That is so awesome love it!!!!
Yes Cancer is no fun, Yes chemo is awful, Praise the Lord in and thru every situation believing in his word and promises knowing that his will is done is every situation. Having in my heart the peace that passes all understanding and it is relaxing here.
The first time was a nightmare, I have to say I am overly melancholy it has not been that bad God has been carrying me thru the worst. Yes I feel like throwing up much of the time and the pain it comes and goes but the Joy of the Lord is stronger than all of that. I just think this too shall pass.
It is hard to continue to take this medication cause it does cause pain and wow at times. I know it is to keep them from coming back. I am healed it is not coming back the first time I always knew deep down somewhere that I was not better. I thank God because the Cancer that did hit my body was a slow moving cancer. Having all the surgeries I have had did help it not spread also. Everything that happens in your life is for a reason. One day it will be revealed why things were they way they were. You will say ahhhh I see, or Now I know why? God has had his hand on me from the beginning. He knew that I would be given up for adoption, I would have the parents I did. I would learn morality that has seemed to escaped some people. I would experience unconditional Love, something my sibling have yet to experience. I have three brothers and one sister that have gone to be with the Lord. I always wonder if they ever knew unconditional Love? I pray they did. I pray my other siblings experience it with all my heart. There are times in your life when you know you need to bow out of people lifes. My stress level is better when I stay to myself with just my family. God is good.
I love Sundays when I have enough energy to go to church, it is a special sunday every sunday my eldest daughter is married to a Pastor it is now a place where we can meet as a family and celebrate life with Jesus in the family what a happy home. Having God in you life is awesome and fun, even while going thru chemo. I am thankful that our family get together point in the Church! That is so awesome love it!!!!
Yes Cancer is no fun, Yes chemo is awful, Praise the Lord in and thru every situation believing in his word and promises knowing that his will is done is every situation. Having in my heart the peace that passes all understanding and it is relaxing here.
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