Day 13 of radiation went without a hitch. Well I am at Ccare but as soon as I get home, I get tired and feel horrible. One positive thing is my pain is under control. Finally after almost 5 years of living with pain it feels different, I live with pain on a high scale my whole life. When I have less pain it is weird because of the fact I am use to pain. I thank God for this Victory it is hard to know how to live without pain when I have lived in it so long. Back to radiation I am almost done then I started Chemo. Kidney cancer is tricky it can only hit two organs before it is over and they look for other ways to save your life. I am believe my kidney will with stand treatments In Jesus name.
Yesterday I slept until today I feel good now but wish I could do more like go to things with my grandkids, I am resting all day today because I pray to go to church tomorrow. They all will be there. They all was make me feel better. Life is nothing if you don't have grandkids. I love them and I have yet to see one of them. It breaks my heart everyday but I know I will be stronger soon. I have been healthy as far as colds, fever and such. My appetite is good I eat good. Lots of medications to give you appetite they truly help. I have not loss any weight.
My husband is the one taking this hard I wish I could give him my faith, hope and belief. I know all is going to be okay. Worrying about it does not make it better you must just go with it. That is where your strength is you just go with it. God is in control we can't change anything, Hope will change it, Belief in your faith with change the outcome. Yes there are those who have lost loved ones to this disease my little brother passed away four years before I was dx. he left us. But he is completely healed he has no more pain, he is eating and thriving with Love. That is one thing my brother was it was Love in the Flesh. He was not perfect but he loved and cared for people in away that only certain people do. I miss him everyday but I know he is in a better place. What is funny is a week before he left this world he kept trying to get me to go to the doctor he said the pain I was in was not normal. He was right, I did go to the Doctors but they never found anything until 2009, My brother was looking out for me up until his last days. I am taking the weekend off and resting need to get my church on tomorrow and get ready for another week of radiation everyday for ten minutes....
Yesterday I slept until today I feel good now but wish I could do more like go to things with my grandkids, I am resting all day today because I pray to go to church tomorrow. They all will be there. They all was make me feel better. Life is nothing if you don't have grandkids. I love them and I have yet to see one of them. It breaks my heart everyday but I know I will be stronger soon. I have been healthy as far as colds, fever and such. My appetite is good I eat good. Lots of medications to give you appetite they truly help. I have not loss any weight.
My husband is the one taking this hard I wish I could give him my faith, hope and belief. I know all is going to be okay. Worrying about it does not make it better you must just go with it. That is where your strength is you just go with it. God is in control we can't change anything, Hope will change it, Belief in your faith with change the outcome. Yes there are those who have lost loved ones to this disease my little brother passed away four years before I was dx. he left us. But he is completely healed he has no more pain, he is eating and thriving with Love. That is one thing my brother was it was Love in the Flesh. He was not perfect but he loved and cared for people in away that only certain people do. I miss him everyday but I know he is in a better place. What is funny is a week before he left this world he kept trying to get me to go to the doctor he said the pain I was in was not normal. He was right, I did go to the Doctors but they never found anything until 2009, My brother was looking out for me up until his last days. I am taking the weekend off and resting need to get my church on tomorrow and get ready for another week of radiation everyday for ten minutes....
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