Going Beyond....the home stretch

I am on my last week of radiation I will get a break for two weeks and start chemo around the May 12, 2014. I can not say I am not scared because I would be lying. I only have one kidney and now not even that. The radiation will kill off the top of my kidney the adrenal gland. I wonder why tumor would be growing there, I think back to things in my past but I believe it was being explosed to chemicals in the grape fields at a young age. They damage that is done to my kidney is awful. I cant even get a transplant until being Cancer free for 5 yrs. I believe that is the transplant rule. I pray when that fear tries to come in. My children are all grown but my children still need their mother. I woke up this morning Easter Sunday in pain, the sun coming up I prayed and repeated the Joy of the Lord is my Strength. It gives me the strength for moving up the hill.

I have to keep telling myself it will be okay you will get thru this, man 5 years I was cancer free. I just have to continue to pray and believe I will be fine