The last Day of Radiation was Monday!!

I have not been able to write the last couple of weeks how to you write about pain, and being uncomfortable. I am truly grateful to be alive still. I start chemo therapy on the 12th after Mothers Day. I have pain in the area where I received radiation it is somewhat worse than before. I am hoping after it heals it will be better. I have to depend on myself to get thru this. I have family and support but the are falling apart so I really cant talk to them about what is happening or what I am feeling. Part of me is angry the other part is okay I can do this...when will this all stop..when will Cancer be gone from my body completely?  My goodness I want to live a life that is more than I am able to get around my house. I want to cook, clean, get dressed up, do my hair, the most important go to church. Where they did radiation effected my intestines and I get gas ...lol. I don't feel comfortable in church yet because I cant sit for along time, I go from laying to sitting. I am trying to get the energy to do more than just crochet or knit. I want to ride my bike, go to the beach, drive a car be outside enjoying the sun. I am sorry I didn't want to complain that is why I been waiting to write. The effects of radiation therapy does limit you life to nothing but sitting and laying. Don't get me wrong I am grateful for my life whatever it maybe but I look normal so people think I am fine... I am not I am just faking and shaking to get thru. I put on the mask for game day everyday. I pray that life would be easy but it must not be in the cards. I will continue to love, Pray and thank God for everything. I will not complain! I will be grateful for what I have. I will be content with who I am. I will strive til I finish the race. Lord what a race it has been. Thank you Lord for your mercy, you strength, thank you for giving your life for us. For it is by your stripes we are healed. Amen
Be blessed pray for your children bodies and health! Be blessed with Health and riches that only the Lord can give better than silver and gold.